Friday, April 30, 2010

One Year Ago Today......

I have tried to think of words to say and put out here on our blog. 1 year later, I still can't find any words to describe how I feel. But oh what a difference a year makes. This has by far been the hardest year of my life. It seems like so long ago that I last saw my son, but I can't believe it has already been a year. I can't believe that it has been almost 3 months since I have lost my dad.

I would like to thank everyone that have worked so hard over the past year to keep Ryan's spirit alive. We have done some wonderful things in Ryan's memory and continue to focus on helping families fighting pediatric cancer. We have received our 501 (c) 3 status, and have been able to affect many children's lives. With the support of the community, we have been able to purchase 30, 26 inch LCD TVs for the J5 unit at Children's. We have sent families to The Harlem Globetrotters, Disney on Ice, The Wiggles, and The Columbus BlueJackets games. We have been able to give Halloween bags filled with many different treats and toys to all children on the floor during the Halloween time. To see the kids after they have had the time away, it has helped me cope with the loss of my boy. We have more ideas of ways to help these kids and look forward to seeing these ideas come to life.

I guess the easy way out is for me to quote the words of Toby Keith. He wrote this song for his friend, Wayman Tisdale that died two weeks after Ryan. If you have never heard the song, please listen to it. Ryan, I love you, miss you tremendously, but am glad that you are pain free!

Cryin for Me by Toby Keith

Got the news on Friday mornin’
But a tear I couldn’t find
You showed me how I’m supposed to live
And now you showed me how to die
I was lost till Sunday mornin’
I woke up to face my fear
While I’m writing you this goodbye song
I found a tear

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wanna be
I’m not crying 'cause I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

7 comments:

Kelsea Davis said...

the first time i heard that song i thought of ryan... it fits perfectly. its crazy to think its been a year since hes been here but still seems like yesterday we were watching a movie while you went out on your bike with friends..that was the last time i saw him. its great that hes still touching peoples lives, like mine, after all this time & he will continue that as time goes on. words cannot express how much i miss & love him. your whole family is still in my thoughts and prayers!

Anonymous said...

Dear Salmon Family,
I have thought about it being one year since Ryan lost his fight to this horrible disease all week long. I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know you miss Ryan but I also know you are thankful that he is painfree and you will see him again one day.
God Bless You,
Linda and Al Wells

Laurie Grossman said...

We think of Ryan so often,Nick went to the cemetary today.I am getting pictures out for Amandas graduation and have come across pictures of Ryan.They make me smile and cry.I am sorry about your dad.Brad and Susan, you are in our prayers and thoughts.We would like to put plaque on the third whole at PuttnPlay if that is alright with you.He was a special part of Nicks life and ours and we want to honor his memory and let others know we knew and loved him.Let us know if that's alright.We also would like to do a fundraiser for his cause.

Love and Prayers
The Grossmans

Aunt Lissa said...

Brad & Susan - Not a day goes by that I don't think of you guys. Ryan and Trey are always sending us the rain, sun or whatever. Would love to see you! Take Care!
Aunt Lissa

Anonymous said...

I was actually thinking of your family this weekend, although I hadn't put the timing together quite right. Thank you so much for the work you are doing to make the lives of others a little more brighter. Ryan's life and legacy live on through your vision and heart.
With love,

Lori Brower
nick-raitt.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

Brad, I've thought of you and your family often since we were on the recruiting trip in Salt Lake City. Although I never met Ryan, it was obvious from the way you spoke about him that he was blessed with parents who did everything they could for him, and who knew how much he was loved. I cannot imagine what you've been through, but please know that many of you continue to have you in our thoughts. Arantza Zabala, Idaho National Laboratory

Anonymous said...

Dear Salmon Faily,


I found Ryan's post on the Corvette Forum. I knew him not and live far away in CA.

I was simply moved by his words, his fight, his spirit and your loss.

Simply wishing your family love and happiness (even in the wake of Ryan's passing), this holiday season.

It's stories like Ryans that remind me of the fragility of life...and how precious mine is.

THank you.

Much love,

Joshua Brooks
The Brooks Family
San Ramon, CA